Everyone does say that laughter is the best medicine. Your medications are just a supplement.
Disclaimer: we are not medical professionals- we cannot give you a diagnosis or medication advice. Please speak to a health professional for this. If you are in crisis please contact one of the hotlines on our page.
Just because you aren’t underweight or haven’t lost weight doesn’t mean this isn’t a big deal. Restricting and counting calories for extended periods of time can wreak havoc on your system. Even if it isn’t a full-blown eating disorder, you seem to have disordered eating and disordered thinking.
I strongly encourage you to talk to a professional about this to develop a more healthy way of coping with negative emotions.
Here are some helpful resources that you may find useful: